a-falling-leaf

When I think of you a smile spreads across my face Just standing by you makes me feel in place Sometimes I try and want to give up on you But I realize now that is something I could never do For you are the highlight of my day You make all my pains go away You brought happiness in my life I never knew something could feel so nice There are so many words I want to say to you Including the words "I love you" You'll be in my heart forever and always And I'll try to say "Hi" when I see you in the hallways To think of a time we might hold hands Or even something much more grand Even though this might not be true For some odd reason I want to be

She lays at night in her bed Just wishing that she would be dead She gets up and walk around Hoping that she won't be found She hobbles to the kitchen room Being ready to face her doom She holds the letter in her hand Saying she's been stuck in quick sand She says "I felt as if I were slipping away" "And nothing could make the pain go away" She opens the drawer and set her eyes On the set of cutting knives To her right there is a shelf Filled with medicine that will destroy her health   She tries to grab it and starts to cry She keeps telling herself "I need to die" The thoughts of friends rush through her head Wondering what they would think

Alone yet again The time all she needs is a friend Thoughts run throughout her mind The voices ring in single chimes Paranoia is the worst She speaks and makes her want to burst The dark one says only one line Telling her that it is time "Take your life you need to die Why go on? It's all a lie" Her body itches for the feel of a blade To just be consumed and cut away Her hand reaches out for someone But in the end there's always no one She sits in the dark and cries her heart out Hoping someone will hear her shouts She doesn't want to be alone anymore She doesn't want to end up dead on the floor

 I wear this mask over my face I wear this mask to hide my fate I smile but it isn't sincere Because otherwise I'd end up in tears I once let someone touch my heart But then they left it broken apart They gave me their hand to show me the light I was happy once but I got lost in the night Now I sit here all alone Crying my heart out in a quiet tone No once can hear my silent cries Because all I do is block them with lies Yet I wish someone could just see This happy mask I placed on me Then maybe they could understand That all I need is a caring hand To guide me back into the light To stand by my side and hold me tight But for now I'll stand h

Sinking deeper into the depths Struggling each time to take a breath Darkness starts to surround And she thinks she'll never be found Sadness fills up her lungs Loneliness makers her body grow numb Tears begin to fill her eyes Because she realizes she's going to die Drowning in this sea of depression No one will hear her last confession Nobody could hear her silent cries And nobody is there when she says her last goodbye.